I have never had trouble sleeping in my life. Not like this.
This past weekend, two things happened - (1) I hit the PANIC button as I reached the 3 week mark for taking my Step 1 board exam and (2) I was ferociously packing/unpacking (still unpacking) as I moved to a new place. Put those two together and you have a weekend where I got very little sleep. Friday night wasn't too bad, as I only had trouble FALLING asleep, and mainly because I was sleeping on my roommate's bed (my bed had been stripped of its linen since I was moving the next morning).
But last night, at my new place... man, talk about the worst night of sleep. Tried going to sleep at 1AM after unpacking a bit but could not fall asleep for 20 minutes. I eventually fell asleep but awoke around 2:30AM as I suddenly realized: MICROWAVE! My new place lacked a microwave. For some reason this kept me up and even as I tried to sleep for the next 20 mins, my mind kept racing, refusing to succumb to my usually intact mechanisms of sleep.
So I decided to try to study as I figured it would put me to sleep. It didn't and I ended up staying up the whole night, getting less than 2hrs of sleep for the night. I've only done that on purpose during finals in college... But never like this, where my body/mind refused to fall asleep.
Now here I am, someone who never drinks coffee, having had a Mocha in the morning and Vietnamese ice coffee for lunch, trying desperately to stay awake until a reasonable time in the night. In the meantime, I study, somewhat deliriously.
Despite my sleep-deprived state, I learned two important lessons/questions today:
A) When does Church become a club, and why is it so hard to prevent that from happening?
B) After a wonderful sermon by Crossroads' head pastor and during communion, I had this amazing, neural-circuit-inducing vision (yes, I could literally feel my brain's electrical waves... or it felt like it) of the Gospel spreading from Jerusalem throughout all the earth... Reminding me that it's HIS-STORY, not mine.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
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A) Not sure when the transition happens, but I suppose it happens because of our sinful natures pervert the community in Christ by minimizing the Christ part. Take out Christ, take out the central place of worship, and then that's what Church becomes.
i read somewhere it's good to make a list of things you need to do for the next day - or in this case, if you forget something, write it down - so you can just leave it on the list and go to sleep knowing you'll remember the next morning. try it out sometime! (:
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