When things are looking up, don't keep staring up or you might trip

The ups and downs of FS. The unfolding drama of the Gospel. I can hear them clashing together as they weave together. Or maybe it's just the howling wind outside from the cold front we are having for a few days longer as it's supposed to snow tomorrow.

I absolutely love post-exam weekends. There's just a great joy getting a few days off when you don't have to worry about an exam looming on the horizon and just be able to relax with people. Those days will get pretty short (at least during the summer) as I start preparing for the most worrisome exam yet.

Only five more weeks of regular classroom instruction (forever! or at least in med school), then boards, then a few weeks of vacation before the craziness and excitement of third year clerkships start and I finally get to do what I signed up for - getting my hands dirty and seeing patients!

I have always seen myself as someone who is adaptable to change, especially given how often I moved around in my childhood. But part of me yearns for stability, a place to settle and place your roots. I found that in St. Louis through my church and thoroughly enjoyed it through my college years and beginning of med school. Then things seemed to crumble upon the departure of my longtime pastor and friend who was like a father to me. I kicked and screamed in my stubborn way, refusing to see the bigger picture...

But recently I have warmed up to the idea of merging with another local church. It's much easier to resist change when you don't know what that change will look like... In some ways, I still don't fully know what the merger will look like, but over the past few weeks I have been able to meet some people from the other church and have been tremendously blessed by them. Instead of thinking about leaving the current church which no longer resembled what I had grown up in the past six years, I am now thinking about how exciting it will be if the merger goes through. There will be trials for sure, but it will be exciting to see what happens.